... When I sit in the saddle. I hope Rainbow knows what a lovely creature she is and how much joy she brings me. 'Very stressed' doesn't begin to describe it this week - my life is in a bit of a transition and Rainbow is the anchor keeping me sane. I didn't really feel like riding today, 'too tired, too stressed...', I was saying to myself... 'Have to get back home to work...', I added to my own burden. But as soon as we were swaying towards the school, I could feel myself being instantly happier. The gentle swaying movement of Rainbow's walk...
Today I schooled her by myself. It wasn't perfect but got some little glimpses of loveliness and some decent outline. If I try and relax, which is not easy at the moment, everything becomes a lot easier and R accepts the bit.
In other news, I have decided to head back to Finland this summer. With Rainbow and my two cats :)
Finally, it's spring! Today car showed outside temp 19 degrees in the sun.
We had a lovely hack yesterday in the sun with our new-ish friends Lesley and Ellie. Both horses were very well-behaved and we did some good stretches of trotting. Didn't attempt cantering, as wasn't quite sure how Ellie and Rainbow would be together, so kept it to a civilised and pleasant hack around the churn. Afterwards the lovely girls got out in the paddock. Turned them out without rugs, so this morning I was greeted by a happy mare caked in mud, all over her back and neck. Just perfect for the dressage clinic we partook this morning! I was absolutely covered in horse hair and dried mud by the time I had finished with her. But I didn't mind really, I could tell she had had a good time and given that she's not been able to go out, due to the flooded paddocks, for many weeks, it was all OK.
Dressage clinic went well too – Rainbow didn't try to test my nerves by spooking at silly things in the arena. Despite it's about 5 months since we last went inside those white boards! Though, the nature of the clinic meant that I could walk around the arena with her in peace before commencing the test. I showed the boards to her and she played ball.
I get very nervous when riding a test and even though this was a practice test, it didn't make any difference to my nerves. I noticed, already in the warm up, that I completely stop riding R, to the point my legs are not even properly applied to her sides! I had to have stern words with myself when I noticed this, 'For goodness sake woman, ride the horse like you always ride. It's no excuse to not keep the leg on!' But overall I was pleased and we got a mark of just over 62%, in W&T intro B. So I will keep doing the clinics, as it's a good simulation of a competition situation with the added bonus of immediate feedback from our judge/instructor and a chance to practise some of the bits we struggled with – e.g. using the corners and noting what it means to ride accurately to the markers, for example, when crossing the diagonal, and how to do half circles and circles correctly...
I have had a lot to think about lately. I don't much talk about my personal life here and tend to stick to horses. I will now, too... However, I have recently started pondering moving back to Finland. I recently awoke to the realisation that not much is keeping me in England. My work is transferable, I run my own media business, and – perhaps rather smugly and I might be wrong – I think I would have a lot to offer in the Finnish media and publishing landscape, so I would take that with me... The scary thing is that I have lived in the UK for 12 years – all my adult life (I came to uni here) – so I am quite anglicised now. I am worried that after the initial excitement of moving back to 'new' country, I would be hankering after the English way of life and getting frustrated. But then again, if I measure it rationally, I have already lived outside the 'exciting' London scene (one of the main reasons for moving to UK at 19 years of age...) for the past 7 years, when I moved to Oxfordshire. The change has become more pronounced, as I now live in the country and have a horse. Living in the outskirts of a bigger Finnish town, e.g. Tampere, wouldn't make a big 'cultural' difference to my lifestyle. You are probably thinking, what about Rainbow? Well, I would take her with me. The cost of transporting a horse, having checked one quote so far, isn't as huge as I thought it might be. My cats would travel with me. The chickens might have to be rehomed. Finding a good value but quality stables for Rainbow in Finland would be my priority, as is finding work for myself, to fund it all. So, I am asking you, dear reader, especially the Finnish contingent, please send me some info. I will open up the comments box so that others than registered blog readers can get in touch. Or send a private email through the blog profile section. What do I expect horsiness in Finland to look like? I imagine it to look like these pics below (blatantly ripped from the internet by the way). Am I correct? :)